Monday, May 06, 2019

self fulfilling prophecy

sometimes i wonder how much of your tendencies, your behavior, is because you're Ruby, how much is because of Down syndrome, and how much is because of how i parent you.
if i'm being honest, i baby you in some ways. i still pick you up (though i swear most of the time that is because i know your stubborn streak will not permit you to move when i NEED you to move), i still snuggle with you until you fall asleep, and i still call you my baby girl. i'm sure an outsider could find a dozen more ways too...

so why, then, am i surprised that you still suck your thumb when you get tired (which is a lot)? it's a habit your brother dropped before he started school, and your sister minimized almost completely by now too. yet you hold onto it, despite all of my best efforts to break you of it.

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