creature of habit

that's me. lehr can testify to the amount of things that i will accept and live with, simply because i always have. for example, we had an end-of-hose sprayer with ten different options of spray. all last year i only used two of the options because they were the only two that worked without significant leaking. even though I would have benefitted from having access to the other options, i never replaced it. maybe it was laziness, maybe cheapness, but mostly i just got used to it and accepted it for what 'normal' was. this is played out again and again in my life.

one might think that a great shift in 'normal' would be traumatic to a creature of habit like myself, but i find that most of the time, the idea of changing isn't something i welcome, but the actual change doesn't take long for me to adjust to. i think i don't resist once the change is inevitable because to do that would prolong the 'in limbo' part. that's the part where i feel a lack of ownership over the circumstances. like i'm driving someone else's car or using someone else's computer.

that's a long winded way to say that after a few days of being short on patience with my family (likely due to the underlying stress that we were (are??) feeling that first week with all of the uncertainty, all of us, even the creature of habit mom, have been able to find a lot of lemonade stands within this lemon farm.